Sometimes, I really, really want to get off line.

Just hit deleat and ignore this aspect of the world. Since one can do that, sometimes the internet community does not seem real. People disappear at the flick of a button, never to be seen again. But I know it’s out here, this world..I would know I walked away and it would eat at me, because it’s a defeat. I don’t like being broken.

I know I am stubborn that way. I am a Taurus. Don’t tell me that I can’t do something that I want to do, because I will do it then. And don’t order me about either, I won’t listen. And you really can’t tell me about me. Like you can ask about me, and question me, and really, you can go deep..I am not afraid of the hard stuff…put it to me and ask, but if you beleive one way and I explain something else..then at least give me credit for knowing my own thoughts and motivations.

My own husband hasn’t quite figured that out. Sometimes he tries to order me about. It’s almost rather comical when he looks confused that I won’t concede to his wishes. Of course he is the same way sometimes. So we do get along.

It has been a hard few days. And I am still not ready to talk about it.